I’ve grown up going to church. I went to youth groups with my friends and went to Sunday school when I could. However, in the past few years, I’ve struggled with various things in my life. This includes anxiety, depression, self harm, suicidal thoughts, and an eating disorder. It would be an understatement to say that I got to a point where I completely lost hope. To be honest, I didn’t want to be here anymore. You can see where that goes—I even wrote a note and everything. This world was too much for me to handle.
At this point in my life, I felt like God had abandoned me. After all, I had all these problems and felt so isolated from the world. Why would He do this to me? In my mind, He obviously didn’t love me.
But there was this little voice in my head telling me to hold on just a little bit longer. That things would get better. So I did. I waited. I prayed I would see a sign that God wanted me to stay. That He loved me. That things were going to get better.
Surely enough, I started seeing God speak to me in amazing ways. Just little things that people said lined up and kept repeating in my life—how I’m valuable, worthy, and loved. How things happen for a reason and it’s all in God’s plan. How He’ll never abandon me and He was there with me the entire time. How I was created on this Earth for a reason—to help others who are struggling and to share God’s word to many more people. This became my goal because I was in that hopeless mindset before and I know many other people who have been there as well. I have come to learn that it certainly doesn’t have to be that way at all. There is so much more to this world and to God’s love that it’s almost overwhelming. Now, I’m closer to God than I was ever before and I want to lead others to be close to Him as well.
On my mission trip to Guatemala, we were only there a week. While that seems like such a small time to share the gospel, it eventually plants seeds that can grow into people leading a life with a strong faith in God. While we did larger things like build houses for families who don’t have one, we also did the “smaller” things, such as just showing some love to children. This is still super important because God makes everything in life work out in a certain way that He planned. Who knows? Maybe they were just waiting for that sign that things were going to get better like I was. Maybe they are beginning to understand what God’s love is like and how even if their family situation is rough and they don’t receive much love, that these children understand that they are loved and valuable. That they are meant to be in this world and can turn to God in times when they are struggling.
Essentially, sharing the gospel doesn’t have to be something huge. While many people in Guatemala have life situations that often make them feel hopeless, we still have many people in the United States or anywhere else in the world who are struggling. So wherever you are, don’t be afraid to show God’s love. You may not be able to witness the effects in the long run, but just know you are making a difference. You never know, you may literally save someone’s life❤️